[you are here to risk your heart]
no easy way
no life worth living
without the harshness
of a hundred winters
sometimes all at once
but that is what makes
love so grand
despite all the breaking,
the falling, the hurting
we go on…
it is for that reason alone
we must.
*
[in this light]
sparse and unrelenting
a keyhole in the abyss
a way out
a way in
let not the mind
dictate your way
life is not a belief
but an entity within
through which the universe
may witness its own existence.
*
[out of tune]
marred by intangibility
nothing mattered
nothing held
only without
do we know peace
a long unfathomable
dream sublime
lost to the learned grasping
for anything within reach.
*
[dust and the narrowing way]
the later it gets
the choices lessen
but the burden the same
the darkness comforts, as always
but the light seems better somehow
softer and more accessible
maybe just a trick of life
or the joke of death
that the closer i get
to settling in
the nearer i come
to the end.
*
[get it over]
long as gone can be
always back around
to broken squares
once removed
in vicious circles
taut by turns of fate
pulled from lonely ends
to walk the constant edge
of love’s last nerve.
*
[rapture in resignation]
only after years and years
of breaking and wanting
of emptiness and challenge
of love and death
can you realize
that it is not until
you are fully whole
that you can
bear the weight
of true solitude.
***
“I had to sink to the greatest
mental depths, to thoughts of
suicide, in order to experience grace.”
- Hermann Hesse